Sunday, February 5, 2017

2nd Annual Our Little j Comfort Packages

Last year on Jesse's 1st Birthday, we donated 25 Comfort Packages to the Kaiser Kraemer hospital where he was born. We are so thankful to everyone that helped make that possible! I am starting to prepare for this years donations that will be made on Jesse's 2nd Birthday on June 23, 2017. Our goal is to donate more than 25 Comfort Packages to donate to Kaiser Kraemer and Kaiser Irvine that requested these packages for their patients as well. We want to do our best to donate as many as we can to help other parents that will unfortunately experience this very tragic and traumatic loss, so they feel supported, not alone and given this package before leaving the hospital, that will hopefully bring some comfort to them through their grief and honor their babies as well. Last year we used GoFund me to accept donations. This year we made an Amazon wish list and are accepting donation through Venmo (Links Below). We want to make sure that every single penny is used towards all the times to put these packages together, we will also be making our own personal contribution to put together these packages as we did last year. Our hurting hearts are happy to continue our son's legacy as we continue to grieve our baby. I honestly wish I had my son and was not doing things in his memory, instead doing things with him in my arms. It means so much for us to have everyone's support in keeping Jesse's memory alive by helping others. If anyone is able to donate, I have attached two links before where you are able to make a contribution.


Amazon Wishlist: Comfort Packages Items
List of some items that are included in the Comfort Packages and can be directly mailed to us.
 
Venmo Donations Option: Celina Barajas-Madrigal/OurLittlej
By searching my name, you can make a donation to  this Remembrance Project.

Donations can also be mailed, please contact us for mailing address at OurLittlej2015@gmail.com

With so much love,

Celina & Jesse and Big Brother Noah

Our Little j 2016 Adventures


We honor Jesse's life by making memories for him, as we wrote on our pregnancy announcements, "Twice the adventures...," we will honor that promise, because he did not get the chance to and continue making adventures for our sweet little boy. I hope he is always with us and knows how much we love him and dearly miss him. Below is a compilation of some of all the pictures taken last year, memories made for him. The song, "I'll be seeing you" by Billie Holiday was on our wedding music cd, now it means so much for our second son. We love you and miss you.

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Lyrics
I'll be seeing you
In all the old familiar places
That this heart of mine embraces
All day and through
In that small cafe
The park across the way
The children's carousel
The chestnut trees
The wishing well

I'll be seeing you
In every lovely summer's day
In everything that's night and day
I'll always think of you that way

I'll find you in the morning sun
And when the night is new
I'll be looking at the moon
But I'll be seeing you

I'll be seeing you
In every lovely summer's day
In everything that's night and day
I'll always think of you that way

I'll find you in the morning sun
And when the night is new
I'll be looking at the moon
But I'll be seeing you





The many ways Our Little jesse was honored by others in 2016

We are forever grateful for everyone  and anyone that has said our babies name, thought of him, asked about him and remembered & honored him in any way. He is our second son, part of our family of four, always. Thank you so much to everyone's love in 2016 and recently. We look forward to the many more adventures and sweet thoughts and gestures he will be part of this year and always.





We are forever grateful for everyone  and anyone that has said our babies name, thought  of him and remembered and honored him in any way. He is our second son, our family of four, always. Thank you so much to everyone's love in 2016 and recently. We look forward to the many more adventures and sweet thoughts and gestures he will be part of this year and always.

Sunday, November 6, 2016

Jesse's should have been First Birthday...

We should have a sweet 1 year old Jesse in our arms today and celebrating his first birthday. Today is his should have been first birthday, if he was born on his due date last November 6th. We don't know if he would have been born on that date last year, but wish things would have turned out as we hoped. We celebrated his Angelversary/Birthday on June 23rd with road trips and camping trips to the mountains and ocean and that felt like a celebration of his life. We will always do that every year for him, on the anniversary when he was born still. Today feels harder and his absence is stronger as we think of what should have been today and always for our family of four. I wish my arms were full with a chubby one year old being sang happy birthday. The 23rd and 6th will always be meaningful days for our little j.They are the only dates that will truly belong to my second son, My sweet baby, we miss you so much.


 


November 1st | Dia de los Angelitos

Our Jesse's little altar. In Mexican tradition, November 1st is set aside in remembrance of all angelitos (angels) babies & children, and altars are created to honor them. I included the remembered letters with all the names of his sweet angelito friends.

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

OC Walk To Remember 2016

          
 


We participated in the Forever Footprints OC Walk to Remember for the first time on October 8th. It was such a special and heartbreaking event to honor our Jesse and 400+ babies named on their Big wall. Before the 5k walk started, every single name was announced. I walked up after his named was announced and was given a single white rose. I was bittersweet to participate, it felt so good to do this for our son and look forward to it every year now. I just wish I had my baby in our arms and doing things with him. We had the letter j balloon with us and when we reached the end of the walk, the balloon got loose. I was so upset and that's when I got really overwhelmed and started crying. I watched as it flew away in such a playful and felt it was a little sign from him. We miss you so much.